11/21/2009

Notes on ageing......



Absentminded-ness-ness

So.....
I went to the "Y" the other day. I have really taken to weight lifting and also swimming. I finished with swimming and was in the locker room dressing.
I took my watch off and had put it in my little bag where I keep my makeup. I finish my primping and get into the car and drive off.
Three quarters of the way home, I remember that I had not put my watch on.
I say to my husband "Oh No!!! I forgot my watch at the "Y". He says "Look in your bag, you probably put it there".

I tear up my gym bag looking for my watch, but to no avail.
I was really sad because, even though it's not worth more than five bucks, it's got a great spandex-ee wrist band that I absolutely love.

My husband says " Oh well, next time we go back, go to the lost and found, someone surely will turn it in". I condescend, grumbling that I am sure someone took my crummy watch.

So, the day carries on, and eventually I stop obsessing on my lost watch.

However, by late afternoon, something is really bugging me on my left arm. I go to itch the spot and-YOU GUESSED IT! My watch was there all along!!!!!
Apparently I had pushed it WAY up my arm (the reason I love it's spandex-ness-ness) so that it wouldn't get wet whilst I was primping in the mirror at the "Y".

Yes, very scary isn't it!???

11/14/2009

A most beautiful and socially relevant music video

Inspire me Thursday: Tree

I've been working on this drawing for a couple of days and just finished it!
I'm not sure about it's exact meaning, but I'm sure that in time it will tell me......

I don't have much time these days, so I have been trying to work on smaller sizes so that I don't have tons of unfinished work lying around.
Unfinished work tends to nag me to complete it which stresses me out!

This piece is a sketch...perhaps an initial idea for a painting...but it also seems pretty complete as it is.

I'm not one to use too many kitschy or cutesy symbols....but sometimes the heart is what it is and nothing else can express what it can visually.......


The size is approximately 8"x11"
It's pen and ink with conte crayon and white pastel on Rives paper.
At first I just wanted to use pen and ink alone, but the picture seemed so flat and uninteresting...
I felt that there needed to be enhanced areas in order to pop the focal points and symbolism as well as imply more mass and "sculpted" form.

The tree is very metaphorical and symbolic to me.
Mostly it is a symbol of place and home.
The hand of course a symbol of the self....
Water can have many meanings, but I think in this instance it may allude to change...and purification.....internal or external.

Lucky for me, my finished piece just happened to fit into IMT's topic of "tree".

11/07/2009

The existential angst of our times.........

My rambling soap box oration................


For the last month or so, I have been contemplating ......
Mostly I have been thinking about the state of the world, but primarily the condition of societies in general.
I have been stewing about what I perceive as the dissolution of ethics and values and it's effects on the evolution of our present day population.

Yesterdays news of the massacre in Texas, and afterward the murderous rampage in Florida,before that, the news of the man in Ohio who murdered and buried multiple people around his yard and house,simply underscored my anxieties.

I can only wonder at what is happening to us. It seems the more we move forward, the more we also move backward.

Technology has allowed us to ascend to great heights intellectually, but, I think also that it has undermined us spiritually.

As I think back into my childhood, I remember freer days....and longer summers.....unfettered by fears of child molesters, rapists, murderers and terrorists.

I spent long unsupervised lazy afternoons exploring the canyons and hills of my town, wandering alone, with my dog and goat, miles from home, unconcerned about any potential boogie man attacking me from the bushes.

I remember with great fondness my neighbors: nosy Mrs. Stuebe, annoying Mr. Costello, and friendly Mr. Munoz.
These people were the eyes and ears of my neighborhood, keeping us kids in check if we did anything they thought was unacceptable.
It has been said that it takes a community to raise a child, and I truly believe this.
Mr. Stuebe always had her nose in our business, knocking on our front door if we screamed too loud, or yelling through the fence when she thought the chickens hadn't had enough to eat.

These people annoyed me to no end, but I also admired and loved them as...in some way, an extension of my own family, never allowing me to go beyond the limits of civility and common decency, and always holding me accountable for my actions and behavior.
If these cultural expectations were in vogue today, would we still see such heinous crimes as the above mentioned, on the rise?

As I have aged, I have seen this kind of ethic dissipate, and with it's dissipation, I have also seen unspeakable actions against even the most innocent, grow.
Perhaps these horrors did exist in the time of my youth and were sorely under reported, or perhaps, more likely, if they did exist, they were simply few and far between.
There has always been violence from one human to another, but there was also always a counter balance: religion,ethical thinking and moral behavior.

It seems to me, that the more we embrace technology, the more we let go of what is true and valuable.
The more we have, the more we want to obtain.
The more we obtain, the more we detach from one another, and in our gluttony, we become apathetic to so much around us that needs to be remedied.

The industrial revolution, as the technological revolution, was a blessing and a curse.
Rural living and familial dependency and accountability went the way of the horse and buggy and our connectedness to the earth.
We made an exchange for the niceties that came into being and promised us a better way of life.
The promise was a nice place to live, enough food so that we would not be in want and....more time.
Some of these promises came true, but some, like time, actually became more elusive.
In our race to obtain, we lost even more.

I believe that perhaps now is the time to rethink our priorities. Throw out that which is not productive and revive that which is, so that the future will be a place for our children to also have a chance to live freely.
I'm just sayin...........................





10/11/2009

Experiment 5,223

Blurry photo,
yes I know....but my camera has been acting up for quite some time......

This is an experiment I did with silver solder and polymer clay.
For a while I had wanted to use PMC, but was having some difficulty finding it.
I had at the same time found some information on using silver solder to make jewelery.
I had had this polymer pendant hanging around and I thought I would experiment on it.


For not knowing how to solder, I think it came out not bad.
Of course, later I realized that I had the wrong shape of solder tip....it actually needed to be flat rather than pointy.
I covered the entire pendant with silver solder, and ground it down a bit with the grinder on my Dremel tool.
But the fact is that, because I used the wrong tip, it was entirely too lumpy to grind down to a smooth finish.
I also got a little close to the glass with the grinder and caused some scratching on the surface of the image.
Overall, not too bad....once I get a new solder tip I am going to try it again.
Stay tuned:)

9/25/2009

Tissue Paper Texture

This is a small 1'x1' painting done on plywood.
The goal here was to get an aged look using tissue paper,wax and acrylic.
It was my desire to create a piece that looked ancient and worn.......


The first thing that needs to be done is to prime your board. This needs to be done to prevent the absorption of the paint. Ply wood is porous and so needs to have a barrier to absorption.
After painting a minimum of two layers of gesso, you may want to sand in between any other layers of primer applied. This will give a smooth and silky surface to work on.
When the gesso has dried thoroughly, you will transfer your design by pencil onto the surface.
In this case I traced the monkey-people from a previous drawing and then using carbon transfer paper, traced the design onto the surface.


After you have settled with your composition, you may want to go back over it with pencil to darken obscure areas.
I also decided to add a few embellishments such as cloth for the hats.

It seemed that my picture needed something more, so I retraced the monkeys in pencil on tracing paper, then gelled that entire piece down on top of the previous drawing. Using gel medium allows for the utmost in transparency...so both drawings can be seen as one.

Next comes the application of tissue paper. Any kind or color of tissue paper may be used including old pattern paper.
For the trees, twine was cut and then glued along the drawn lines of the trees. After thoroughly drying, tissue paper was applied. Each layer of tissue paper is thoroughly covered, back and front with gel medium for maximum adhesion and maximum coverage. Here tissue was gelled, then crumpled and applied withing the boundaries of the string. At first it may seem difficult as the gel is very sticky and may cause your tissue to become very fragile, but you will eventually get the hang of it.
After each tree is filled in with crumpled tissue paper, you will apply one to two sheets of tissue paper to cover the trees overall.

At this point you may want to go ahead and add certain details that you possibly want to show through the tissue.
I have gone in and added hair ticking with pencil.

Next you will use an application of dry-brush usingTitanium White acrylic. Make sure to use a firm flat bottom bristle brush. Dry your your clean brush thoroughly. Dip only the tip into your acrylic paint. Now use a scrap piece of paper or a paper towel to lightly brush the paint onto. What you need to do is to lightly "grind" your brush in small circular motions in order to remove most of the paint. When it seems like there is primarily only residue left, you know you are ready to apply dry brush to your painting.

In small circular motions begin to cover the surface of your trees and tissue. If it seems that there is no more paint left on the brush, repeat the same process.
You may want to cover the entire surface with dry brush to give a textural yet transparent look.

After you have completely covered your surface with dry brush in white paint, wait for it to dry, then apply a good coat of gel medium. Make sure that you cover the entire surface.
Wait for it to dry well, then you can apply gold using a liquid gold pen. it is very important at this stage that the gel medium is completely dry, or it will destroy your pen.

To create an antiqued look, mix at least three quarters of gel with one quarter of Burnt Umber.
Mix thoroughly. Apply in thin layers over the surface of your picture. You can also choose other colors beside Umber such as blue or ochre and do a transparent layer of each. If there are areas you especially like, feel free to use a tissue to wipe areas of gel away to reveal what is underneath.
It may be a good idea also to put a transparent layer of gel between each layer of tinted gel.
Be sure each layer is at least tacky before applying the next.

Now, apply dry brush again, but this time using Burnt Umber instead of Titanium White.

When this layer is dry, you may want to add details with a sharpie or fine brush.

Lastly is the wax layer. Use an old candle of a neutral color such as an olive green.
Light it and hold the candle at an angle, allowing it to drip onto strategic areas of the painting. As it drips, use the back of an old spoon or else a palette knife to smooth.
Tapered candles work well for this as do small votive candles.

Scrape the surface of the wax to create your desired textures.

Your final layer of paint can be dry brushed on. Use Burnt Sienna as well as Burnt Umber.

Lastly, apply a good coat of high or no gloss medium.