11/07/2009

The existential angst of our times.........

My rambling soap box oration................


For the last month or so, I have been contemplating ......
Mostly I have been thinking about the state of the world, but primarily the condition of societies in general.
I have been stewing about what I perceive as the dissolution of ethics and values and it's effects on the evolution of our present day population.

Yesterdays news of the massacre in Texas, and afterward the murderous rampage in Florida,before that, the news of the man in Ohio who murdered and buried multiple people around his yard and house,simply underscored my anxieties.

I can only wonder at what is happening to us. It seems the more we move forward, the more we also move backward.

Technology has allowed us to ascend to great heights intellectually, but, I think also that it has undermined us spiritually.

As I think back into my childhood, I remember freer days....and longer summers.....unfettered by fears of child molesters, rapists, murderers and terrorists.

I spent long unsupervised lazy afternoons exploring the canyons and hills of my town, wandering alone, with my dog and goat, miles from home, unconcerned about any potential boogie man attacking me from the bushes.

I remember with great fondness my neighbors: nosy Mrs. Stuebe, annoying Mr. Costello, and friendly Mr. Munoz.
These people were the eyes and ears of my neighborhood, keeping us kids in check if we did anything they thought was unacceptable.
It has been said that it takes a community to raise a child, and I truly believe this.
Mr. Stuebe always had her nose in our business, knocking on our front door if we screamed too loud, or yelling through the fence when she thought the chickens hadn't had enough to eat.

These people annoyed me to no end, but I also admired and loved them as...in some way, an extension of my own family, never allowing me to go beyond the limits of civility and common decency, and always holding me accountable for my actions and behavior.
If these cultural expectations were in vogue today, would we still see such heinous crimes as the above mentioned, on the rise?

As I have aged, I have seen this kind of ethic dissipate, and with it's dissipation, I have also seen unspeakable actions against even the most innocent, grow.
Perhaps these horrors did exist in the time of my youth and were sorely under reported, or perhaps, more likely, if they did exist, they were simply few and far between.
There has always been violence from one human to another, but there was also always a counter balance: religion,ethical thinking and moral behavior.

It seems to me, that the more we embrace technology, the more we let go of what is true and valuable.
The more we have, the more we want to obtain.
The more we obtain, the more we detach from one another, and in our gluttony, we become apathetic to so much around us that needs to be remedied.

The industrial revolution, as the technological revolution, was a blessing and a curse.
Rural living and familial dependency and accountability went the way of the horse and buggy and our connectedness to the earth.
We made an exchange for the niceties that came into being and promised us a better way of life.
The promise was a nice place to live, enough food so that we would not be in want and....more time.
Some of these promises came true, but some, like time, actually became more elusive.
In our race to obtain, we lost even more.

I believe that perhaps now is the time to rethink our priorities. Throw out that which is not productive and revive that which is, so that the future will be a place for our children to also have a chance to live freely.
I'm just sayin...........................





10/11/2009

Experiment 5,223

Blurry photo,
yes I know....but my camera has been acting up for quite some time......

This is an experiment I did with silver solder and polymer clay.
For a while I had wanted to use PMC, but was having some difficulty finding it.
I had at the same time found some information on using silver solder to make jewelery.
I had had this polymer pendant hanging around and I thought I would experiment on it.


For not knowing how to solder, I think it came out not bad.
Of course, later I realized that I had the wrong shape of solder tip....it actually needed to be flat rather than pointy.
I covered the entire pendant with silver solder, and ground it down a bit with the grinder on my Dremel tool.
But the fact is that, because I used the wrong tip, it was entirely too lumpy to grind down to a smooth finish.
I also got a little close to the glass with the grinder and caused some scratching on the surface of the image.
Overall, not too bad....once I get a new solder tip I am going to try it again.
Stay tuned:)

9/25/2009

Tissue Paper Texture

This is a small 1'x1' painting done on plywood.
The goal here was to get an aged look using tissue paper,wax and acrylic.
It was my desire to create a piece that looked ancient and worn.......


The first thing that needs to be done is to prime your board. This needs to be done to prevent the absorption of the paint. Ply wood is porous and so needs to have a barrier to absorption.
After painting a minimum of two layers of gesso, you may want to sand in between any other layers of primer applied. This will give a smooth and silky surface to work on.
When the gesso has dried thoroughly, you will transfer your design by pencil onto the surface.
In this case I traced the monkey-people from a previous drawing and then using carbon transfer paper, traced the design onto the surface.


After you have settled with your composition, you may want to go back over it with pencil to darken obscure areas.
I also decided to add a few embellishments such as cloth for the hats.

It seemed that my picture needed something more, so I retraced the monkeys in pencil on tracing paper, then gelled that entire piece down on top of the previous drawing. Using gel medium allows for the utmost in transparency...so both drawings can be seen as one.

Next comes the application of tissue paper. Any kind or color of tissue paper may be used including old pattern paper.
For the trees, twine was cut and then glued along the drawn lines of the trees. After thoroughly drying, tissue paper was applied. Each layer of tissue paper is thoroughly covered, back and front with gel medium for maximum adhesion and maximum coverage. Here tissue was gelled, then crumpled and applied withing the boundaries of the string. At first it may seem difficult as the gel is very sticky and may cause your tissue to become very fragile, but you will eventually get the hang of it.
After each tree is filled in with crumpled tissue paper, you will apply one to two sheets of tissue paper to cover the trees overall.

At this point you may want to go ahead and add certain details that you possibly want to show through the tissue.
I have gone in and added hair ticking with pencil.

Next you will use an application of dry-brush usingTitanium White acrylic. Make sure to use a firm flat bottom bristle brush. Dry your your clean brush thoroughly. Dip only the tip into your acrylic paint. Now use a scrap piece of paper or a paper towel to lightly brush the paint onto. What you need to do is to lightly "grind" your brush in small circular motions in order to remove most of the paint. When it seems like there is primarily only residue left, you know you are ready to apply dry brush to your painting.

In small circular motions begin to cover the surface of your trees and tissue. If it seems that there is no more paint left on the brush, repeat the same process.
You may want to cover the entire surface with dry brush to give a textural yet transparent look.

After you have completely covered your surface with dry brush in white paint, wait for it to dry, then apply a good coat of gel medium. Make sure that you cover the entire surface.
Wait for it to dry well, then you can apply gold using a liquid gold pen. it is very important at this stage that the gel medium is completely dry, or it will destroy your pen.

To create an antiqued look, mix at least three quarters of gel with one quarter of Burnt Umber.
Mix thoroughly. Apply in thin layers over the surface of your picture. You can also choose other colors beside Umber such as blue or ochre and do a transparent layer of each. If there are areas you especially like, feel free to use a tissue to wipe areas of gel away to reveal what is underneath.
It may be a good idea also to put a transparent layer of gel between each layer of tinted gel.
Be sure each layer is at least tacky before applying the next.

Now, apply dry brush again, but this time using Burnt Umber instead of Titanium White.

When this layer is dry, you may want to add details with a sharpie or fine brush.

Lastly is the wax layer. Use an old candle of a neutral color such as an olive green.
Light it and hold the candle at an angle, allowing it to drip onto strategic areas of the painting. As it drips, use the back of an old spoon or else a palette knife to smooth.
Tapered candles work well for this as do small votive candles.

Scrape the surface of the wax to create your desired textures.

Your final layer of paint can be dry brushed on. Use Burnt Sienna as well as Burnt Umber.

Lastly, apply a good coat of high or no gloss medium.

9/22/2009

Still workin'



Still working on this painting..........


9/07/2009

Get out of the way old woman!


I must say, I am pretty taken aback.
A couple of weeks ago I was watching a particular morning TV show.
A segment came on regarding the comeback of Whitney Houston.
It was stated that she was planning on returning to her musical career at the ripe old age of 46.

Now, I was never much of a follower of her genre, but, I always thought she had a lovely voice, especially her ability to reach really difficult notes.

I applaud her attempt to come back and renew her life's path.

The interviewer went on to discuss with the panel all of the issues of reviving ones fizzling career.

What amazed me was the focus, it really wasn't on her career, but rather on her age.
They continually kept saying "well, you know at her age she...."
Well at her age her voice can't compete with younger singers, well, at her age she can't reach the same high notes that she could when she was young, well, at her age she'll never be able to keep up with shows and tours;her voice being so decrepit that she would have to rest in between for at least four days in order to repair vocal exhaustion...., at her age, she has to do a perfect show each night because God-forbid that a "Twitter-er" might be lurking in the audience, recording her hideous performance and then releasing it on the Internet, thus destroying any possibility of a comeback.

On and on this went for around what seemed like fifteen minutes.
Nobody said anything in regard to such blatant age discrimination.
The woman is only 46, shes not 107 and on a respirator.

It amazes me what an obsessive youth culture we have become.
You pass the age of 33, and suddenly you start receiving burial plans , insurance policies and AARP in the mail.

Plenty of people have made or continued on with wonderful careers in so called "mid-life" (who decided exactly what defines mid-life anyway?).

Is it because Madam Houston is a woman, that people feel free to berate her as too old?
No, I am not so sure, I remember when the audiences were so cruel and harsh to Pavarotti in his later career, booing him, simply because his voice cracked during a performance.
No, I think it's equal opportunity age bashing in this country.

I remember watching on a particular music TV station as two hosts berated Ashton Kutcher because "how can he be married to such an old,ugly woman (Demi Moore....when was she ever "old' or "ugly"?).

What happened to the idea that a person is valid for who they are and what they accomplish?!
Why is it necessary to judge a person because of their age or physical appearance?
Doesn't it take your entire life to come into the fullness of who you are?
What happened to the adage "with age comes wisdom?" Or is this simply passe, we are too good for all that philosophical stuff.

When did we start to discard people because we judged them invalid? Has it always been here, or is it just concentrated now with the advent of this age of communication?

All societies peak, become complacent and hedonistic and then decay. Is that what we are seeing now? A society filled with over-running ego and Narcissism that can't tolerate anything outside of the television induced ideas of values,esthetics and beauty that we have all been force fed?
I guess we have become domesticed force fed Foie Gras.....who cares as long as it doesn't affect me directly...right?
Geez!
I guess the best thing is really just to turn the TV off (as well as all other communication devices), live ones own life, and let the wheel of history do it's job.........but that would be complacent...wouldn't it?????
I'm just saying.......................

8/23/2009

IF: Caution


She decided to throw caution to the wind.........................
4"x5" pen and ink on paper sketch with added digital color